So here I am faced with some harsh realities in every aspect of my life. In these past few days I have lived some of the darkest days of my life, and although extremely personal, I can say it is in process and each day the sun rises so must I. I must choose to find the best path for me and make concious choices to love and forgive everyday.
As for my "professional" life, I think one of my problems is I have so many passions. Most people have one, I have several and I find it trying to divide my time between them. As with all things in life, especially passions you have to be driven and focused and put your energy into it.
I am a mother, a wife, a designer, a singer and I have a job outside the home too! So, how do I split my time and be good at all those things? Difficult question and one that I have been exploring as of late. I suppose I must put my priorities in order...and that is the difficult thing to do.
What takes presidence?
Being a mother and a wife are equally important to me...and then on the other side of the scale my opera and my designing are as well. Opera gives me a way to express myself in a very out there theatrical sort of way. Being part of the music fills my soul like nothing else. There is something very pure about singing. You must bare yourself completely, be naked, so to speak! It is possibly the most vulnerable you will ever be....it connects a part of my soul that is not accessable otherwise. My issue here, is that I have not fed this part of my soul for a very long time and now I am missing it terribly. So, I have decided to work the voice, work the body and find my way back to this missing piece. As with so many problems facing all of us, it is the commitment, the commitment that must be made. Time, much time. More time then I happen to have in a day.
Someone once told me that you make time for things that are important! I am not sure if this person was wise or just had a lot of time on his hands?!
Then comes my other passion (a new one for me) which is designing and creating children's clothing and accessories. My designs and my sketches are far more indepth and far too complicated for me to produce. In truth I do not possess the skills needed to create my truest designs. I feel I would love to do couture - something extravagent and unique, more one of a kind. But I still love to mix and match patterns and fabrics and take things to the limit with the skills I have now. Sometimes they work sometimes they don't, and that is okay. I love the sense of discovery, of creating. There is a feeling of accomplishment that I simply can not get with other things. The fact that something raw becomes something beautiful in a relatively short period of time. And that you made it, you created it, with your hands! I can not imagine something so gratifiying and exciting.
I have two very strong passions....now how to make it work? They both need a high level of commitment every single day!
Perhaps I should go to the next level and decide where and what I want from each.
- With my singing, my goal is to sing a full opera by the middle of next year. I have an audition I am presently preparing for and I hope I will be given an opportunity to share my voice with others.
- My goal in designing is to make it my full time job, to be able to always be at home and work from home and make a living out of it.
Okay, so with this said, to do so means that I must work extremely hard at BOTH.
With sewing, it is not just sewing anymore, no Sir....now it is about blogging (which I don't seem to be very good at - I have seen some amazing ones) and networking, about promoting and showing and marketing! This takes almost a larger time investment then the actual creation of the garment! This is one of the boarders that are hazy, at least for me! How do I, alone (as I am just starting out) get all this done? And still have time for all the other important parts of my life (like my family)?
I am going to make a schedule of sorts. I will schedule my "family,office, production and opera" time.
I will not be able to do 50/. For me, right now, it is simply impossible! So, I will try 25/20/40/15. 25% into family time and 20% into office time, 40% into production time and 15% into opera time . I will try this for 2 weeks and then tweek the numbers accordingly. Because, in truth, you need to do both on a daily basis, but you also need the practicum.
I will start tomorrow and let you all know how it is going! Oh ya, weekends are free days...well,we can try :)
Maybe the 7 dwarfs had it right....whistle while you work.
Or for me it may simply be Sing while you sew :)
You can only be yourself, but you can be very good at it!
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